Saturday, June 6, 2009

hangin'

I said, "Where you been?" He said, "Ask anything"
Where were you When everything was falling apart? All my days Were spent by the telephone It never rang And all I needed was a call It never came In the end Everyone ends up alone Losing him The only one who's ever known Who I am Who I'm not, who I wanna be No way to know How long he will be next to me Lost and insecure You found me, you found me Lyin' on the floor Surrounded, surrounded Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you? Just a little late You found me, you found me Early morning The city breaks I've been callin' For years and years and years and years And you never left me no messages You never send me no letters You got some kinda nerve Taking all my world.

You Found Me - The Fray

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

speechless

reminds you of something? before our last goodbye?

panjang, gk usah dibaca jg gpp.

oke, udah saatnya ngepost pake bahasa indonesia. yaahh biar yang merasa ditujukan bacanya gk ribet. sebenernya sih agak sedih (dan pathetic) juga mesti ngepost ginian segala. abis udh gk tau lagi mau cerita k siapa. orang" pasti udh pada males dengerin, yang biasanya paling pertama dicari dalam urusan ky ginian udah positif gk mau denger karena kmrn abis ribut besar, udah deh kan gk tau lagi mau cerita ke siapa kecuali si bloggy bolly ini. sebenernya sih masalahnya gk ribet, eh ribet sih.. cuman bener" gk tau aja mesti gimana ngadepinnya. gk kurang" deh kemaren bangun" abis tidur sore jam 8 langsung meledak, abis itu mengharapkan didengerin malah didamprat. nah loh! (duuhh tiba" temen sekantor yang juga adalah temen senior d kampus nanya: "you okay?" matiiii bingung mau jawab apa! :s)

jadi gini ceritanya, kmrn balik dr kampus rencananya mau pulang bentar trs jalan lg jam 7. Nyampe rumah baru jam 5 lewat, jadi kan mikir bisa beres", nyuci baju, istirahat bentar trs jalan lg. Tapi pas sampe kamar, langsung maleeesss banget ngapa"in. padahal udh buka jedela siap" mau vacuum dan ngepel. tp akhirnya jendela ditutup lagi, nyalain ac dan langsung tiduran d tmpt tidur. ngeliat cucian numpuk rasanya mageeerr banget. emang seharian kmrn rada pusing ky masuk angin gt sih. jadinya ya maklum kalo lemes. sambil tidur"an, tiba" ketiduran pulesss sampe jam 7:50an. gk jadi deh kan jalan. akhirnya voice note ryan bilang kalo bakalan stay d rumah aja. gk lama, bb geter semua. pada nanyain dimana dan tiba" si kk ngabarin kalo opa masuk rumah sakit lagi. down banget rasanya! krn udh gelap dan mulai takut, akhirnya masang iPod loudspeaker trs keplaynya lagu" dr playlist yg harusnya gk didengerin. jadilah.. MELEDAK SEMUA! (bagi yg kenal baik, pasti tau meledak artinya apa. malu ah kalo ditulis)

setelah meledak sekitar beberapa belas menit dan mulai sesek nafas, diputuskan untuk nelfon si orang yang satu"nya bisa diharapkan dalam keadaan kaya gini. gk taunya pas nelfon malah dimarahin! marahinnya masuk akal sih, cuman rada kaget aja dimarahin. tp emang bener", nih orang satu"nya yg berani marahin dalam situasi apapun. abis itu sih ya emang baik banget, cmn marahnya harusss ada! sama aja ky si papah. mungkin krn itu mreka cocok :s dan anehnya, kalo dimarahin sm dia, langsung bisa berhenti meledak dan jd bisa lgs tenang. frik? dia bener juga sih, gk mau denger org ngomong sambil meledak soalnya ngomongnya jd gk jelas katanya. trs dia membiarkan beberapa detik untuk meledak dulu, baru dia blg :"diem! baru cerita. emang dulu kamu cengeng ky gini, cha?" daanggg! ngena bangett! trs dia pake acara nyasar lagi. sempet salah ngomong dianya, tp abis itu langsung dibenerin lg. bagus deh. ada kali berjam-jam nelfon. mulai dr ngomongin duduk awal permasalahan yg bikin meledak sampe masalah diantara kita berdua yg gk selse". setelah tenang dan panjang lebar diomongin, makin bingung sebenenrnya gimana. banyak banget hal" yg kelupaan, tp dia masih inget. dan itu parah banget lho. pantesan aja dia benci banget. tp ya mau gimana lagi? emang blm saatnya mungkin. wah parah deh, bingung banget gimana ceritanya. mesti bener" private mungkin baru bisa kali ya? beraaaatt!

Monday, June 1, 2009

grh!

Whoaaaa! I'm now stabbing myself at the office since I have nothing to do besides drowning in the lake of boredom. I hateeeeeee being forced to work when I don't have the willingness to do it. Nyahah.. Yeaaa, that's lifeeeeee peopleee! I only slept for a couple of hours and I just ate the first meal for the day by 4 pm :( So saaadd!

toodles!

4:23:59 AM

aku bener" gk ada ide gimana cara ngasihnya kalo bukan lewat ini. hahaha..

Sunday, May 31, 2009

you

(:

Saturday, May 30, 2009

The Call

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

define: sad

no we didn't die, we just never had a chance to grow.
it's not that our love died, it just never really bloomed.

baby dearest,

where did i go wrong? i should have told you from the start that i'm closer then you think when we're apart. nothing that i've tried is as simple as this line. but without you my life is incomplete my days are absolutely gray, and so i try let your heart know for sure that i have so much more to tell you every single day.

you better save those words up and give it to whoever else in need.

naahh, i have the ultimate eye candy to stare at tho. he looks better than you.

and i melt in his arms whenever he hugs me. whoa!

Thursday, May 28, 2009

routine bites hard

love you cha.
don't say those three words since we both know that love,
love will tear us apart again.

too msyli, dudeeeeeeee

photo courtesy: http://www.flickr.com/photos/8237178@N08/3526440000/
There are known knowns,
There are things we know we know.
We also know there are known unknowns,
That is to say we know there are some things we do not know.
There are also unknown unknowns,
The ones we don’t know we don’t know.

line 10

oh hello, you're back again (:
always have, always will.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

wants.

Buy something like this, Baby.
and I'll borrow it from you.

:'(

Well, I told you via twitter that I'm feeling a bit freaky.

!@$!##@&!#%#%!%!#%!%!%$$@$ eurrrggghhh!i'm feeling freaky. like this: ~~~~~~~~~~~ nyuut, nyuut.. grrhh! idk :|Freaky in a sense that I myself don't know how I feel. The biggest possibility of the cause might be the sad situation at home. Yea, home; real home. Sad to know that you're 'okay' here but you're family back home currently facing a big problem that they themselves don't know how to handle.

Shoots, I really hope I can go back soon and make things at least a bit better for all of them. But yeaa, the hope is fading away since I'm sure I can't go back unless for the weekend of July 12. Geezz, I wanna cry..

I'm sorry. I know I have to be stronger than you know.
But still, I have my moments.

ry: "hmmmm?"

ooh yea! hahahaha..

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I just realized that growing up too early would somehow kill you - mentally.


ichateia
When you can't see what is true, change your point of view.

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I've been making love with my quizes! :p haha

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i just realized that i can be a good listener and adviser, but i can't be a good storyteller when it comes to my 'personal' issues. whoa!

define: lame.

back to the old theme for the time being.
so lame :s

Monday, May 25, 2009

define: theme.

okay, i've decided.
i REALLY need to change the layout and theme of my blog!
any ideaaaaa? any good source or website that are user friendly anyone?
pls pls pls plsssss..
thaaanks!

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